today, i'm struggling.

today, i'm struggling. i had another deeply thought out piece i was looking forward to writing today. but, this is what is flowing. today, i'm struggling. i stayed awake late watching recently-produced documentary shorts about the American "working poor." it's put my mind in a haze today, and i can't seem to shake it. i'm not sure it's to be shaken.

while i was a college student at NYU i produced a full-length documentary film featuring an eclectic cohort of homeless people living on or around the NYU campus in Lower Manhattan. i was then, and am now, mystified by how the human mind is able cope with such stark sensory dissonance without losing balance. in more particular terms, how could such extreme poverty exist within such intimate proximity to such extreme opulence, without throwing everybody into a frenzy? in more direct terms, how long are we gonna just ignore all these obviously destitute people? or even better, whose responsibility are these people? who's the leader here?

those are the questions i found myself asking after completing that film. i'm asking the same ones 12 years later. and, what i'm realizing, in the midst of my haze today, is that the answer is us.

term of the day: entropy. who knew classical thermodynamics could be so practically applicable. so much to learn.

song of the day: Brain Cells by Chance the Rapper. my favorite joint off what is potentially my favorite mixtape. also, the video is waVY.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bbq016ZOWYw