this is a 1-player game. configure your controller.

i don't think anyone gives a shit. i don't mean that in that in an emo, or discouraging way. i just mean nobody really cares as much about what's happening in my life as i do, and they never will. assuming that's true - and i believe it is - it makes me very relieved. so much of my angst in the past has come from concerning myself unduly with never-ending thoughts about how others might be perceiving my actions or behavior, and what they might think of me as a result. in actuality, 99.9% of people in my life (even those who care about me profoundly) probably spend an incredibly small amount of time thinking about me at all - in any shape or form. so, what on earth was i worrying about? and how do i get back that time?

i, unfortunately, don't have answers to either of those questions. i am, however, encouraged by my new perspective, and grateful for the additional time i've managed to take back for myself. there are so many things i enjoy to do these days, and worrying does not make the list. i'm enjoying my personal 1-player game, and cherishing and savoring each of the people in my life as our 1-player games intersect. i much prefer this approach.

term of the day: supply chain. as important as the product. so key to eliminate unreliable dependencies.

song of the day: Sunday Candy by Donnie Trumpet & The Social Experiment. this comes pretty close to nostalgia bottled up.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Sucz-zqERlE